by Emily Hartl 6 years ago
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the shadows force me to consume food without my conscious control or acceptance
feeding and coinciding with the shadows
taking life is evidence that the shadows are more in control of me and doing evil actions
taking souls
feel i am absorbing the animals consciousness
passive death
form of punishment
don't recognise self refleciton
don't want male attention
want to shrink down and not exist
disgusted by self
foreign body concept
diminishes the amount of me left
coerces me to do further evil acts
fat fosters the evil
fill me with more anger and desire to do harm
i will be sent to a place filled with shadows
they watch me
make sure i don't disobey them
report my doings to a higher being
it's as though they're in another dimension
judge me
fear they inhabit friends
cause the shadows within me to strengthen
trick me to let down my guard
also inhabit friends or passerbys
feel like i need to protect my brain from the shadows
stop filing my brain with their thoughts
need to stop their absorption into my mind
they want to cause destruction and harm
use me to get to leaders and gain control
shadows move through me to other people
use me as a vessel to get to the human world
fear they will be transferred into other
isolate self so they cannot get to others
little human remains that isn't possessed by the shadows
cannot differentiate what was real or implanted by the shadows
fear that outsiders will perceive the shadows within me
fear i will contaminate outsiders with the shadows
result in harm or humiliation of me
outsiders are conspiring against me
outsiders will want to get rid of the shadows and me
control me
parasitic growth inside me
they want to gain complete control over me so soon they won't need me as a vessel
no longer have own conscious control of self
don't have own thoughts
empty vessel
consumption of food empowers and strengthens them
cause them to insert more thoughts into my head and their actions
increases their control of me
this body does not feel mine
imprisoned by this flesh
the world does not feel real
it's as though it's a projection from the shadows
i see glimmers and flickering that indicate this world is aprojeciton
i cannot trust my perception as truth
it's like watching a film unfold without being able to control it
i move without knowledge
threaten to use me to harm others
feel like images on the news and bad things are threats from the shadow that they will then do harm to loved ones that these are actions from other people who are possessed entirely by the shadows
the shadows within me will soon cause harm to my loved ones
i must obey their orders
they have a predetermined plan of what i have to do
my body moves wihtout conscious control - i am observer of my life without control
absorb their consciousness
absorb thoughts of consciousness from other people
memories are implanted by the shadows
they are projections from their world to paint an image they condone
they scream in my ears and whisper words in another language that i cannot understand
Show me images of harm done to others
cannot differentiate my thoughts from theirs
my mind is scattered with words i cannot understand
brain is polluted by thoughts of the shadows
think i need to do harm
