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Actions/Practices/Habits/Behaviors | "How do I live my life?"
Work 3 days a week
makes things more stressful but i like expensive things
i met a lot of my friends there
sports 5-6 days a week
this is what truly makes me happy, even though it hurts physically
school 6 days a week
parents forced me to do the ACE program
parents expect me to have straight A's and threaten
to take sports away if i don't
Values | "What's important to me?"
honesty
this causes tension because i'm not honest with
myself and don't always tell the truth to people but
i expect people to tell me the truth.
hypocrit
respect
freedom
this is tension because i want freedom but i feel like
im trapped and don't get to do what i want.
Experiences | "What's it like being me?"
A lot of people leave my life and i really dont know why
since people leave me, i push new people away so it wont happen
my dad was an alcoholic for half of my life
made me really angry
i got my first medal for cross country last year and it was my first year racing
it made me feel like i was finally worth something
Relationships | "Who do I really connect with?"
My bestfriends. (there are 4)
I trust my mom the most
holds too much expectations for me
don't trust my dad as much, hes very judgmental.
holds too much expectations for me
Me and my brother don't talk as much
I have an amazing relationship with my team (cross country)
i don't see the rest of my family and its rare if i do.
Blind spots? | "What am I missing?" or "What are we hiding?"
Missing things | What's being overlooked?
i hide the fact that im afraid of being alone
Avoiding or changing the topic | What's not being said?
my true feelings about not wanting to live up to my parents exoectations.
Subtopic
im missing my true passion and what i want to do with the rest of my life
Emotions | "What do I feel?"
Insecure
social norms and expectations
not exceeding expectations of my parents
pas relationshps
overthinking
angry
not exceeding expectations of my parents
i feel like im not as good as an athlete, even tho i can be
school expectations make me stressed, which turns into anger
closed off emotonally
i hate feeling vulnerable and will avoid situations that will make me feel like so
i dont let anyone get close to me and eventually push them away
i always say "i'm okay" even when im not.
Institutions
school
social norms
work
Beliefs
not judging people if you dont know them
i believe in others and give credit where its due
i dont even believe in myself
ghosts