The David Experience
The name change was me creating a container for survival.
Changed it when I was 10 years old. Not every 10 yr old decides to legally change their name.
When I go into the how I ask my parents. Go into the character of what my dad sounded like. Share the story or talking to my Dad on the phone after my arrest and when he said "son, your in the big leagues now". Wow, this would be such a different story if I were a baseball player...
I was a player in testing the limits my level of self destruction could take me with out actually dieing. And the truth is... I was so selfish in my dispair I'm lucky I didn't kill someone else. I crashed cars with people in them. No one was hurt. I was inebriated every time. No arrest. When you get caught up in a story so elaborate as I did... You literally are the only one who can't see it. It's that crae crae all in itself. That we can get so wound in to our emotional past that we become blind to the level of insanity we are dishing out.
The shed story
Really act this part out. Get on the floor and really go for it.
Compare Leads to Dispair
The Tracey Days
Didn't think I was enough because I didn't do well in the school environment I was in. Fit does matter and in todays world theres more opportunity to find fit. This was so not a good fit that it created a misfit... that was me. My twin sister was an excellent student. And the more I tried to express who I was the more I was bullied and beaten and told to shut it down. Eventually... I did just that. Retreated to solififying a narrative about self worth that would poinson my very existance.
The more I can be in the moment and use my senses... the more the message is powerful.
IE. The wall separation
School story was awesome.
(Confusing with the teacher narrative)
Being in character when raising my hand. Think about the improv work with Trish and Chris here. People want you to be you... it someone that people really like and want a lot more of in their life. wink wink
Lesson here is about comparison
Share story about hair cut, shoes, & Pepe jeans
Was comparing myself to my sister, my best friend and it started a pattern I did all the way up through college.
David's Speaking Business
My committment to my wife and my life.
I started to acknowledge that
I went back to rehap for the second time. Only this time I wasn't being told by a judge to do so. Nope, I was through judging myself and knew I had to get to the bottom of why I was trying to self sabortage myself stll.
Changed My Name
Didn't think I was enough
Didn't think I was smart
Didn't feel I had value
WHY I changed my name. I thought if I changed my name maybe that person would be good enough.
Speech Key Points
What do I need to learn?
The world needs my contribution
I am enough
Subtopic
I have value
What I need to hear is the most I need to talk about.
Speak what I need to hear the most.
